Cuba

About a week ago Darrick came home from work and said that we needed to talk. He said he is 1 of 2 guys who was chosen to go IA. IA in military terms stands for Individual Augmente. IA's are chosen from people on shore duty to fill a need the military has else where. A lot of IA's go to Iraq. But this IA is for Cuba to work at the prision-GTMO and it is for one year.

So we have been waiting to hear who will go. Today Darrick got the written orders that it is him.

I am heartbroken and taking it pretty hard. I think because it came out of the blue. At least when Darrick is stationed on a ship, we know he will be deploying often, it is the nature of being on a ship. But we are on shore duty for 3 years. Which will now only be 2 years because 1 year will be spent in Cuba.

My biggest question is why is this happening? I know God has a plan but I just don't see why this has to be. Do we need to learn something, is God sparing us from something, is there no reason for it and it just stinks that he got picked?

It also puts our adoption on hold.

I have done a lot of crying today. I feel like I can't do it, but what choice do I have? I feel like I am on the fence of being angry at God and trusting Him.

A year from now will it all make sense to me?